I arrive back at the castle more saddened than when I left. As I land safely on the grounds where I am protected by the very essence of the earth, Cyn starts to take form again and peals away from my skin till he is once again in solid form.
“Why are you still so sad?” Cyn asks.
“Because I don’t want to be another person wandering around lost, missing a part of my soul.” I answer.
Cyn gives an exasperated grumble, “Have you tried to connect with him or have you been wandering around all day pouting and acting hurt?”
“Cyn, you are supposed to be on my side.” I protest
“When you withdraw your energy you hurt him as much as you hurt yourself. He flew away, you didn’t ask him why. Did you think he needs to take care of his own things, his own life?”
“In this world, each of you has your own paths to take and your own lessons to learn. Just because you are bonded through out space and time doesn’t mean that life ceases to exist for one or the other, it means that you need to learn to co-exist and you can’t be self-indulgent because what hurts one, hurts the other.”
“Now stop pouting and connect with your Dragon and make sure you didn’t take away his strength at a time when he needed it.”
As I opened up the wall I had built so I wouldn’t fee Dragon so he couldn’t hurt me anymore, I felt this huge wave of tiredness wash over me and I got light headed from it as it started to overwhelm me. I also felt his grief, his sadness and his pain at causing me hurt and being unable to connect to me either. I cried out wanting to do anything to make it better, if I only could see through his eyes and know what he was going through I would be able to help him out.
“Dragon, show me what you see, maybe I can help.” I cry out into the darkness.
As I close my eyes I start to see flashes or snapshots of Dragon’s world. Negotiations between people, dealing with someone he cares about who is in pain and lashing out at him but they continue to bring pain upon themselves and others and he sits there helpless. He is trying to put together a campaign of so many people but he is tired of them all trying to soothe their egos by being in the spotlight and trying to take control. There is hope and joy and fear as his mind touches upon the new woman in his life, but he is afraid he is making the wrong choice, but she makes him happy. He doesn’t want to cause anymore pain.
So many thoughts and emotions, all washing over me until I am able to harness my calm, cooling energy that allows me to bond to Dragons so that they don’t consume me and I absorb the heat and confusion of the Dragon fire and I return the energy back to Dragon pure and consumable for him to use.
“I love you.” I whisper into the darkness as Dragon flies on with his life and I continue with mine, touching minds with him so that we both know we aren’t alone.
